Good Morning Lovelies, 

For many people, they assume that having an ED can be fixed by just eating foods and gaining, losing, maintaining your weight. However, it isn’t like that at all.

Whilst one minute you can be getting better, the next you can be falling back into old ways. The other day, I had to admit that I was struggling to my mum. She yet again had to help me stop what I had hoped my head had not been convincing me was a good thing. 

Making me dinner, when my head told me I was being greedy and didn’t deserve it. Playing Christmas songs and snuggling up with me on the sofa, ensuring I was comfortable - I  can’t sit for long due to problems with my back - watching a film with me. She helped distract me for hours. 

There are so many days that I wish I could wake up and it all be a thing of the past. I often wonder if banging my head against the wall would rid me of it. I feel like a failure often. But hearing my mum tell me she is proud that I admitted that I needed help means that I am winning in small ways. 

No one person goes through the same thing with their ED. We are all different shapes, sizes and mentally battling our illnesses. We are all trying though. We are all hoping to win.

Whilst I know I probably won’t overcome mine completely, having an amazing mum supporting me helps. So, as I go to bed now, to sleep off the voice, who hopefully will be a bit dimmer tomorrow, I want you all to know that I am proud of you and to keep going. Slow and steady wins the race. 

And Mum, I love you to the moon, infinity and every far flung space that exists! 

Joey X