Good Morning Lovelies, 

2025 was a hard year to say the least. I don’t know what I really achieved during it. However, I know that I spent 2025 fighting for my health, mind and worth. All of which were tested more than once. In fact, it felt like I didn't spend a week where I wasn't fighting to keep going in some way.

I won’t lie, I felt down more than up. I spent days where I didn’t want to get out of bed. I didn’t want to look in a mirror or look down in the shower, often leading me to washing in the dark, when my eating disorder and body dysmorphia was having a bad day. I didn’t want to go to things or embrace life at times. I know this may sound dramatic but having been judged and examined so much by others over the year, I just couldn’t handle it anymore. 

I was sick of being blamed for everything that happened during the last 12 months. I was sick of not knowing what is going on in my body and the constant worrying it caused. I was sick of trying to fight every illness within me. I was just sick of it all. Yet, something deep within me kept striving. To keep going. 

It was not easy and still isn't easy, in any way, shape or form. I have failed more times than I have succeeded. I have had to stay quiet and let lots of things and people go to stop them from damaging my mental health anymore. I have had to embrace being lonely, whilst also working to meet new people. My weekly therapy sessions have been full of tears, sometimes even blood and sweat too. Yet, they have made me a whole lot stronger. 

I know now that I am worthy of being on this planet. We all are. Every issue that we face is an obstacle that has been built to prove this. I may have faced a whole host of abuse and accusations from people I thought were family and friends, that have hurt me in every way, but they have shown me that I know my truth and that is the most powerful thing.

I am the first to hold up my hands and admit that I am not perfect. To me a perfect person is an imperfect person. I haven’t lied. I haven't made claims or stated someone has done or said something that wasn't true. I have never made out that I am the best in any way. I have owned up to any struggles that I have, to try and bring joy back into my life by working through them. I want to feel the happiness in every day. 

So, I have decided to make 2026 the year of saying yes more. Doing more. Seeing my worth more. Letting things go that no longer benefit me. I hope you lovelies will help me achieve this and that I haven’t left you all wanting to run away because of this post aha! 

I promise tomorrow will be a lot more light hearted but today I just needed to write. To let all my feelings out. I truly thank you all for letting me do just that! Here is to a happier time! Starting now lovelies! 

Joey X