Grief! It’s a funny old thing to navigate but it’s a key emotion! It’s a feeling that shows love in its purest form! I wanted to share with you all that it is okay to feel it any way and forever long you need to lovelies! I’m still in that emotional state myself and this post explains why I am okay with it!

Good Morning Lovelies, 

Recently, I was watching the BAFTAs and I was hit with an unworldly amount of grief. Hearing Warwick Davis speak about his wife and seeing the emotion he still held in his heart for her hit me like a ton of bricks. It was a vision that showed that grief has no time limit. Whether it be one year, ten years or fifty years, that grief will always remain and in some ways I am thankful for it. 

There is not a day that doesn’t go by where I don’t get upset about my dad not being here. I wish to hold his hand, say I love you and give him one last kiss on the cheek, whilst enveloped in one of his big squeezy hugs all the time. I go to bed with a hanky of his, which has his aftershave on it, to remind me of him from the moment I wake up to when I go to sleep. I cry every single day for him to be here. The are tears of pure love. 

That’s why it is okay to feel grief. However long or however much, it’s okay. I don’t think my heart will ever fully heal from losing him. And it’s a fact I know because the love I feel for him is never ending. He was the first man I ever loved. He was the provider, care giver and overall the most epic man I ever knew. He had his faults but they were even more reasons to love him. 

My tears are love. My memories are love. My heart, blood and being are all because of him and my mum. When little things hit us hard, reminding us of who and what that person meant to us, it is love it is purest form. So, if you need to cry, shout, laugh or even stay silent, for however long it might take, that is fine by me. 

Don’t ever let someone tell you that you should be over your grief! You feel that for however long you want to. Feel it to your very core if you have to. My grief is shown through the memories that I share of my dad because I don’t want anyone to forget him. I don’t want him to not be around by shutting him out or by suppressing my own grief. He was the main musketeer in our little trio and now with only the dynamic duo remaining it hurts my heart but in a loving way. 

I’m sorry to ramble lovelies but I just felt like I hard to write about this topic because I am so sick of people saying that grief only lasts for so long. It doesn’t. It lasts a lifetime and that is perfect fine! It’s love in its purest form! 

Joey X