Being brave comes in many forms. Sometimes it can be saving a persons life. At other times, it can be facing a huge fear. Something I did at the start of the month, as I went straight into two situations that scared the life out of me. Fear is something I hate but the pride afterwards was worth it. Find out why here!

Good Morning Lovelies, 

I am writing this feature on a warm Friday morning with a tummy full of antibiotics. Over the past few days, I have really been through it and it hasn’t ended yet! Whilst it wasn’t really the infection I faced, it was the fear of being in a hospital that caused me so much pain. 

Since being an inpatient on an eating disorder ward, I can’t face the situation of being on a ward or in a hospital department well. I struggle to deal with the authorities figures, causing panic attacks to occur. The week I am writing this has been an anxiety riddled affair to say the least. 

After coughing up blood, I went to the doctors. I was meant to see a nurse, but ended up having to see the duty doctor. I’ve never been so scared in all my life. Yet, I can’t praise him and the chaperone who came with me into the room enough. Both treated me with such professionalism that I felt better automatically. 

However, when the blood returned the day after, I was then faced with having to go to hospital. Again, I had a panic attack in the waiting area, but the staff were able to triage me into the room and help me out quickly. When I got the results that I may have a serious infection, which would mean that I needed to see a team at the hospital, I freaked out. I don’t want to go. I will but I will be in and out as soon as possible. 

This week though has shown me that even with this fear, I can do it. I am proud of myself for the bravery I have shown and done. Whilst I am now full of antibiotics and anxious about the upcoming follow up, I know I can do it. I’ve come so far and this will be another step forward. 

Sometimes you have to face the fear to fight the fight! And showing or telling people about your fear can make you see just how strong you are too! There is no shame in it and often when you tell people they will help as much as they can. Right now, their faith in me is keeping me strong, even as the nausea from the medicine sets in. I’ve come too far to go back now!

Bravery is a long word that comes in long forms! You just need to see how amazing you are to see how much of it you have! Because we are all full of it to the max! There so, whatever brave act you face today, I want you to know that I am so proud of you! We have got this lovelies!

Joey X