Some days can be a right pain in the arse. Whether it is from a little lack of sleep, body image issues or my overall mental health, but today, the day I am writing this (26th Feb 2023), I feel like shit. Not ill. Just down. And that is okay!

Some days are not meant to be perfect. They are not meant to be singing and dancing numbers. They are days to remind us what is important in life. What and who really matters. Days to refresh the brain in some ways. Okay, so I know a lot of you may be about to take my Inside Out DVD away, but hear me out. 

When I woke up today, I looked at my body before I got in the shower and could have cried. I love and appreciate it, but not in the right way. To me, my body is horrid. But it is also the vessel in which I am. I walk around with this head and these thoughts, so I am trying to learn and deal with them as I can. 

That may bring sadness to me. It also brings clarity though. My body is the only one I have. My mind is the only one I will ever own. It is up to me how I spend the day. Did I want to spend it curled up in a ball in bed? Yes! What did I actually do? I made bread for my mum, cleaned our house a little bit and tried a new food. All when my mind was telling me to do more and eat nothing. Some days, just getting up and carrying on is enough. 

I’ve been to the lowest point before, but I hope and work hard to never go back there again. I have too many dreams and love too many people to do that. Speaking to my mum this morning, all about how I was feeling, I felt better. She came up with ways to distract me. Holiday planning and budget making. She found her bread had gone mouldy. I stepped up and used my baking skills to solve this issue. 

Things that make my mind work. Things that show that whilst it is okay to stay in bed all day, it is also okay to find distractions and ask for help. It is okay to make future plans or to be in the moment. It is okay to be sad and joyful at the same time. If you haven’t seen Inside Out, you need to for further explanation on this. 

Overall, what I am trying to say is that it is okay to feel how you do. To do what you do to get through a day. It is okay to cancel plans. It is okay to say no. It is okay to do what you want to. Spend your days doing what you like and not what others want or expect. Just be you! 

Joey X