Feeling lonely is honestly the worst feeling in the world and it’s something I have been struggling with a lot! Spending hours in bed crying over it at the age of 29 isn’t something I thought I would ever speak about, however, I think it is important to finally get it all out in the open to maybe feel a little less alone!

Good Morning Lovelies, 

Have you ever felt like you are the loneliest person in the world? I’ve been struggling with this feeling a lot recently. I used to be someone who loved meeting new people. I wanted to be involved in group activities and I loved being in a busy office. Then my illnesses hit and since then I’ve found that I like being on my own. I even get anxious being around a lot of people. Oddly, this feeling grows when it’s a lot of people I may know. 

I have so many days recently upset, crying to my mum about how lonely I feel though. When she goes off to work, I feel like I don’t know what to do with myself. I count down the minutes until she is out and back home. At 29, I know I have a whole life ahead of me to meet new people but I just feel scared. 

I’m scared to make new friends in case I’m not good enough for them. That our relationships will break down like others I have had in the past. The need to be liked being so overwhelming, as I don’t really love myself, so how can I get people to like me too. It’s all a massive shower of shit to be brutally honest. 

This year, I didn’t make it a resolution, as I don’t believe in them. However, I want to meet more people. In person. I wanted someone to talk to at any time of the day and feel like we could be open and honest about anything and everything. This hasn’t happened yet but I hope that in 2025 it will come.

Making friends is so incredibly hard as we get older. It’s not like when we were young and we could just run up to people at school and instantly click. Believe me when I say that I wish that it was. Yet, I am sure that one day, even in many months time, that I will make a new connection who will love me for me and I them. Even if I have to run up to them and ask them if they would like to play a game with me. 

I wanted to write his post lovelies, as I know many of you will feel the same. I promise lovelies that it will get better! We have got this! Friends, it’s time to assemble!

Joey X